The Sickly Sick - Mild Panic

Months ago, and I mean MONTHS ago (Sept?), I told myself: All of your paintings will be done by the end of March. April will be dedicated to stretching and framing etc. Well guess what? In 12 days March will be over, and all I can think of is how much work I have left to do. It's not that I'm neglecting my work--trust me I'm not, I'm in the studio for a least an hour to two, twice to three times a day. It's a matter of my work needing to be a body of work for my senior show, and because of my progression, some things aren't necessary anymore, which means I need work that will tie everything together, reflect that progression.

Spring Break was great. I went home for the weekend, had an amazing nightlife during the week but was very productive during the day. So I worked, but I also gave myself some time to relax and have fun before the Panic Switch is pushed. I have 3 stretched paintings, in addition to the other that is even framed and ready to go, but one of those 3 may not make it in--unnecessary. At the moment, I look at my work, and I think this week, if I get the supplies, I'll be ready to stretch 3 more and finish them. Then I have three other works to complete. Bringing my total to 9 paintings for my show. I'm secretly hoping to bust out a 10th if I can, I mean, yes I'll be busy with framing and other art related things for the show, but I can't go all of April without painting... can I? I'm still hoping to have some prints in my show, which I hope to work and finish in the next two weeks as well. However, for the moment, they are on the backburner---Painting is more important.

Now what has slowed me down this week? Sickness. I caught a virus that had been going around, and it left me a bit crippled aka, I had a hard time working on Mon, went to the doctor, rested. Tues, I barely left my room, I slept most of the day or spent time chatting online. Wed, I was feeling better enough to work in the studios, but that left me exhausted--not a smart idea. Thus Thurs, I wasn't 100% as I should have been. And now, I am in the last stages. Thankfully since Fri I've been able to work, Sat I worked and even went out for a bit, but nonetheless, I find I can only work a short period of time before I have to go home and just rest, whether that means napping, getting online, even eating. I need rest. The worse part is that I feel I lost a valuable week of working time.

So I had this goal of 12 days to finish all my paintings. One painting is barely started. One is left still to paint, meaning it's a complete blank canvas. My prof wants me to work on getting each done, and not work on multiples as I have been. She's right. However, I'm to that point where there needs to be paint on that canvas. I need to tie all these loose ends.

I set a goal of end of March. 12 days. So I'm going to ask you a question:

Do YOU think I can do this?
----because I sure hope I can.

We Are Broken - or just getting to that point.

Paramore is going through my eartubes right now. I can't believe it's been a month since I posted, so there's a lot of must say. For one, I think maybe this blog should just be about art and what I do in general. I mean, I'm trying to put my stuff out there on so many places, that maybe links are just better? I don't know. I have a somewhat website now for digital media, and I may actually get a legit real domain name and all at some point. With that said, I may get rid of some of my other pages and consider making demo pages, like how I do this, how I get that, or something. Dunno. I decided that I do still want to blog about my art and art making even though no one else really reads this.

But in other news, Senior Review II occurred last week, and I have a debriefing on Thursday. Yep. I got a teaser today. Kinda nervous. Oh internet you will do so much good for me in the end, but all this uploading and promoting blah, lots of organizing...takes some time and thought.